Tami pants posts a question on Facebook about your dream job/career. A seemingly innocent question, but my first qualification is: do I assume I'm good at whatever I want to do or is she asking for my dream job given my current skill set?
So I'm randomly thinking about it as I'm driving somewhere, and I start to think about my one semester as a music performance major in Missouri. Sometimes I wish I had stuck with that; Alexis Wisniewski - Concert Pianist. That would be cool.
HS: Sure, but you'd be using your giftings for your own glory, instead of Mine.
AW: (selfish and argumentative) If that's what I wanted to do, would You disallow it?
HS: Should you be asking for permission, or guidance?
AW: What if you guide me to spend my life doing something I don't want to do?
HS: What could you want to do besides My will?
AW: I mean what if it was something really awful? What ever happened to the desires of my heart? Would being a disciple mean I have to spend my life doing something I really dislike? Or ignoring something I'm really passionate about?
HS: So what if it did?
Of course my rebuttals were weak and unfounded and unBiblical, but I think that last point is what He was driving home. And of course it probably wouldn't come down to that because He knows the desires of my heart because He made them the desires of my heart and He loves me best ... but He also knows how to speak to me.
Am I following Christ because it's convenient for me, or because He's Truth?